September 21, 2019

I'm watching old movies this morning.  I started with That Hamilton Woman with Vivien Leigh and Laurence Olivier and have segued to Desiree with Jean Simmons and Marlon Brando.  Classic movies always put me in a good mood.

I'm angsting about this kitchen renovation.  I don't have anyone to do the demolition on the old cabinets and countertops and I fear we will have to do it ourselves.  It might be too expensive to have someone do it for us.  I have a guy coming over today to give me an estimate. If it's too much, I will either have to deal with the demo ourselves or reduce my countertop budget and get something cheaper.

As for counters, I've been desperately trying to find something within our budget.  Actually, I'm trying to do something cheaper. I can do Lowe's or Home Depot but their contractors charge extra fees because of the big box affiliation.  I'm also looking at other options as installing it ourselves to save some extra money.  But, every tutorial I watch is so involved and I know Greg doesn't want to do it himself.  So, I need to look for a lower overall price.

I would love to have butcher block but it's too high maintenance and will crack and stain.  I wanted quartz just for the durability but I'm not finding anything that I really like.  Besides, it's not much cheaper than granite.  I have found some granite I like but I don't want the kitchen to look too formal.  Granite brings a formality with it that doesn't suit this house.  I want country/cottage/farmhouse style.  The granite may not work as well.  So, I'm off today to look at some different options.

September 20, 2019

This week, I've been feeling like a change is on the horizon.  I don't know what but I feel it in my bones.  Maybe it's wishful thinking. Maybe it's just my arthritis.  

Once again I have created too much work for myself.  I tend to be easily influenced by my dreams and take steps to make the dreams reality.  I go all hot and heavy after my dreams and then lose steam after a couple of months.  Such is the case with my business (businesses).  I have myself spread too thin and I have too many things on my plate to take care of that I forget about having the time for fun.  Part of me wants to merge these businesses and I can with one of them but it won't ever amount to anything because I don't have the time nor the desire now. 

And yet, as busy as I've been, I'm bored to tears.  Fucking bored!!!  Nothing is really happening at work but that doesn't bother me much.  It's a job without a future and that's just fine with me.  I don't want to work my way up the ladder anywhere.  I just want to come in, do my job, and go home to the important things in my life.  This job serves me well but when it's slow and I have too much time on my hands, I get really bored.  During these times, I try to read but that makes me sleepy more often than not so I can only read in short spurts.

The nights are getting cooler around here and that's so nice!  The days are still hot and I'm tired of it.  Hot weather is not in my future.  

Too bad California is such a shit hole.  The weather is great but the state itself is in bad shape thanks to decades of Democrat rule.  It was a great place to live when I was growing up.  Now, not so much.  The homeless are invading every corner and I get accosted frequently. Crime is on the rise in my little town and I see more and more of bad elements moving in. I keep trying to get the spouse to move out of state but he isn't budging on that account.  He has a fairly stable job here that he hates but he isn't about to jump ship.